I really believed it when I proclaimed that I was going to measure my success by the way my clothes fit and how I felt. So...after two weeks I was looking for some type of tangible result. Last week I decided to weigh in when I met with Kristie, my weightloss coach. My scale at home hadn't shown any weight loss so I figured hey, what the heck. I stepped onto the scale, saw the number and jumped off quickly. Kristie asked me what was wrong and I said there was no way I had lost that much weight. I stepped back on the scale and realized I had lost at least 10 lbs. ; 11.4 to be exact. I had also lost 2 inches off my chest. I couldn't bring myself to believe that I had lost that much weight. But how could Kristie's scale show that much of a loss and not be true? So I accepted it, sat back and celebrated my success. I had really worked hard and it paid off. Mark was so proud of me; so was Emily. Jeanne was truely happy for me and offered so much encouragement. That was last Wednesday, 2/24/2010.

While I was actually a little proud of myself, I hadn't accepted the fact that I had lost that much weight. So today I stepped on the scale at home - no weight loss. Then, just for kicks, and to further damage my outlook on my ability to loss weight, I stepped on the scale in the health office at work. It was nearly the same as home. How could that be? Which scale is right?

I wanted to believe, deep in my heart, that all my hard work had amounted to something but how could it result in nothing? A little over two weeks and no results, well, 2 inches off my chest. I have been exercising 5-6 days and eating no more than 1300 calories a day. A complete change in eating: lots of vegetables, fruits, grains, lean meat and dairy. I have been eating very healthy and enjoying it; I even changed to soy milk! So how could this be? I am now facing the biggest challenge of my first few weeks. I can actually say I am craving chocolate. I am stresse out to the max! I think I will go to bed and make believe this isn't true.